Receive Grace to be Graceful


While the past two days of this work week has passed by so swiftly than I expected, I am pausing tonight to go back into the silence before sleep.  The moment where I commit to rekindling the moments where I discover the places of joy tucked between the busy hours or the day's work.
#160.  The call to pray before our meeting acknowledging the presence of God #161. Protected by God's peace the whole day despite work issues. #162. The momentum rolling with newly discovered opportunities. #163. My parents' appreciation and interested in what I've been writing of late. #164. The delight of my parents as they learn how to use iMessage. #165. Rekindling the dream of building art foundations.

Last Sunday I was anxious to experience the possibility of encountering so many unresolved issues that have piled up while I was away.  And though they continue to exist, I am wrapped in a place of peace. Steadily keeping my eyes on Him, the Giver of peace.  

I realize that keeping a slow and steady pace is important in keeping my heart in a restful place.  To be unperturbed of what  clamours for attention takes a certain discipline of not being troubled.   Reacting in a troubled way at the onset shatters the quiet and robs the moment of the grace that is present.  

I listened to what may have been issues that continue their cycle.  Matters that needed to be fixed.  Deliverables that needed following up.  Resources that needed to be immediately bought.  Communication that was misunderstood.  But I listened, attentively.  Admitting to myself that nothing I can do at the moment will ease the intensity of anxiety in the situation.  Waiting and thinking.  Praying about the right thing to do.  Flowing in an unforced rhythm.  

I found grace today and it is true, that when you receive grace (by yielding to the fact that not everything is within your control and that's okay) you become graceful to others.


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  1. UnknownNovember 13, 2012 at 11:41 PM

    I love the flowing in an unforced rhythm. It takes dedication from me to do this - normally I am a type A planner. But I find when my plans fail and I have to surrender all, it always turns out much better than I first thought, because I have invited God into the mix. Welcome to SDG.

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    1. katherinaNovember 13, 2012 at 11:46 PM

      Thank you Jen! I found your site through Jennifer Camp's blog. And it's a lovely place of gathering. I'm new to this rhythm of trying to find words and weave them so I can keep staying in faith. It's awesome how all of you are able to keep up. I'm hoping the passion for seeking God in these spaces will rub off on me.

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  2. UnknownNovember 14, 2012 at 1:02 AM

    Yes! Not allowing circumstances to out pace the grace of God. He is more than enough!

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    1. katherinaNovember 14, 2012 at 7:00 AM

      Thank you for dropping by Jen! :) God is indeed more than enough! :)

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  3. CourtneyNovember 14, 2012 at 2:29 AM

    I love how you are purposefully trying to be unperturbed. Just releasing control to God. That is a beautiful image and one I will carry with me today.

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    1. katherinaNovember 14, 2012 at 7:01 AM

      Hi Courtney, thank you for dropping by! It hasn't been easy but God's grace is abundant. I hope to keep on carrying on this way. Your encouragement helps me follow through.

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  4. Jean WiseNovember 14, 2012 at 2:56 AM

    Coming over from Jen's SDG blog hop and really glad to find your blog. Love your writing voice. I too crave silence inbetween the chaos - that is where I find God.

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  5. UnknownNovember 15, 2012 at 1:05 AM

    Yes, I am trying not to let the anxieties of my life get me trapped when sometimes the truth is there is nothing you can do in yourself to fix it.

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    1. katherinaNovember 15, 2012 at 6:51 AM

      HI Lori, thanks for dropping by. Getting out of the trap is not that easy. But I hope you find here that though the struggle to stay in peace is real, God finds you anyway. Will be praying for you dear sister. :)

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