My Refreshing Moment

For the first time in a while, I went home early on a Friday  night.  I've have been wanting to slow down on some activities as of late to give myself some time to breathe.  Lately, there hasn't been a lot of silence.  Youth ministry has been taking up a lot of time.  Conversations mixed with prayers.   Workload has doubled my stack of "things to do" and I look forlornly at the accumulating stack of reading material on my desk that is now catching dust.  

Reading.  Prayer.  Writing.  This is my haven.  This is what rejuvenates me and yet I am seldom able to do it.  There are times I find myself able to cull out the words that are clumped up in thoughts but those times are few and far between.  The past few days have been almost suffocating.  But I take heart in the thought that all challenges are a part of pruning and as the epistles of St. Paul say, "perseverance produces character".  

I just finished watching my favorite TV series as of late.  Shifting in between screens.  Catching up on my blog subscriptions, email and the Facebook notifications.  There is not a lot of time for meaningful reflection despite my efforts to do so.  Still, I'm learning that it is through the imperfect pursuit of a God-centered life, I recognize the graciousness of His presence.  Saying, "It's okay.  I will never give up on you." 

The next few days will be filled with activities again.  But I hope I can find a balance where the silent introspection of fleeting moments will not escape me.  I need it.  It is my refreshing moment.


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